tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-19671293095119566282024-02-06T18:08:20.570-08:00The Sleepless Stitchand Her Small Tidbits Here and ThereSleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.comBlogger386125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-52972210414145247332017-05-04T20:41:00.002-07:002017-05-04T20:41:56.153-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;">Mental health month, so I thought I would write about my personal experience.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Last year we decided to watch the football documentaries on Netflix. They were talking about concussions and the long term issues that come from them. It was then that I understood and started connecting my story together. During my kid yrs I remember two intense, literally blinding, concussions and one that wasn't as intense, but was still a pretty bad head injury.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">You don't have to play football to mess up your brain.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">It's hard to recall when exactly my depression or the morbid thoughts began. My friends and I would always laugh off the morbid so it didn't seem like such a bad thing during my high school yrs.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Going back further though... I almost lost my mom to pneumonia, we actually did but she was resuscitated. I didn't know how to emotionally deal with all that being between 7 &9. So I became angry and rebellious in my heart. I was also apart of other people's lives that died or were severely injured... Suicides, accidental suicides, a witness to horrific car accidents, ect ect That also heightened my fears of death, sickness, loss of control, that's a lot bottled up inside because I didn't know how to release it which became depression and suicidal scenarios. Every time I got in a car I would run what ifs thru my head. It got worse during my first pregnancy by the end of it that postpartum depression hit hard with a vengeance! Right before I gave birth I started bawling, I cried for a week over everything. You'd just look at me and I'd lose it. I was a huge mess, but I was also afraid to say anything because at the time they were throwing anti depressants in high doses at everyone with out thinking things thru. I didn't want that, I told myself I was strong enough and didn't need a doctor's help. Praise God he protected me and my children!</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">The morbid thoughts got worse, and depression got worse, but I continued to push it down inside. I learned to pretend there was nothing wrong. Second pregnancy and I wanted to throw my children up against walls. Every time I got in a car I thought about the what if scenarios. But this time it involved my children. </span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Things did calm down. After my third baby in 2003, I had pretty much managed some control.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">I'm a believer and I know despite my actions and behavior the Lord was protecting me and my family. It took many yrs to feel some what normal, well what I thought was normal. But the suicidal thoughts were still there and the depression was still there. I called it seasonal depression.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">Anxiety attacks stepped in. It actually started near the end of college '98/'99 (school ended in May and I had my first baby that Nov.) I'd have one maybe once a year then they started to increase after 9/11, by 2014 I was literally dealing with it 24/7, anxiety, suicidal thoughts and severe depression. My body was shutting down, I spent most of that yr in bed. I put on a happy face as best as I could but I was exhausted. Being an introvert doesn't help either.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;">My husband was extremely worried about me and 2015 was my turning point, I finally went to a doctor. I wasn't fully honest about the severity of my depression. So we took care of my non existing thyroid, my seasonal depression and my chronic pain issues that yr.</span></div>
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I was finally out of bed!! I felt alive!! I lost 60 lbs! My chronic pain issues, I shared what that was in other blog posts, my depression was milder, the anxiety calmed down as well. It didn't all magically disappear, but it was manageable. At this point I still hadn't brought up anti depressants.</div>
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2016, I made it thru winter with high levels of vitamin D and my happy light. My thyroid balanced out. I still had a few anxiety attacks but I had my little drug for those moments to shut it down. I hated having to take lorazepam. I only took it when I absolutely had to.</div>
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But then summer came and the depression, although in my eyes mild from the yrs before, didn't go away... I was unable to hide the inside any more, the moment my daughter's softball coach pointed out that something was wrong and we needed to talk, I knew I wasn't ok. Our meeting was the best thing! I know the Lord crossed our paths just for this. Her words were like daggers to my heart, but they were true. I finally learned I'm not ok and it's ok. It's ok too have bad days, it's ok to get help. That next week I finally talked to my doctor. I didn't tell her the severity of my suicidal thoughts, which were 24/7, but I was so used to it it seemed normal to me in a way... My mind hadn't been clear in decades, talk about a million voices in my head! So noisy ALL THE TIME!</div>
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I started a mild anti depressant, 5mg then worked up to 10mg. </div>
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PRAISE GOD! The voices stopped, the depression stopped, I could breath, I could enjoy life, conversations, people, I started really venturing outside my safe place at home in my chair. I was on it for a very short time. But it kick started something good. I actually pursued and got a job in a coffee shop I absolutely love!! I hadn't had a real job since '99! So you could say I ended 2016 with a triumphant bang.</div>
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Oh, also found out I had Scoliosis and have a wonderful Osteopath/manipulation doctor.</div>
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This yr, I've made it thru a horrible winter, got a little bummed out at times, but found ways to change things up. The anxiety popped up a little bit, but I realized my scoliosis pain is a trigger. And knowing the triggers I can put the anxiety to rest in minutes.</div>
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No morbid/suicidal thoughts still. I actually have a lot of days where my head is clear and calm. Even during crazy rushes at work I'm able to keep chilled. People-ing is still exhausting, but that's an introvert thing and I don't know that I'll ever know how to change that. Haha</div>
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I've learned that I may always have mental health issues. The anxiety, depression, pain. But it's not who I am. It doesn't control me and it's ok to not be ok and it's ok to ask for help and I'm not alone. I've just got a glitch in my brain from accidents. Things may never magically go away, but I've got the hat of tricks to choose from so to speak to take care of them.</div>
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People care people love you, be honest with yourself, be open.</div>
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It's ok. 💜</div>
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Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-55983184752556580272016-07-20T14:04:00.000-07:002016-07-20T14:04:39.888-07:00Change is Good<div style="text-align: center;">
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">Last year was the year of getting my health back.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">Finally got myself to a doctor, whom I love! We started working on my thyroid, which was basically on the floor. Started working on my anxiety and severe depression with vitamin D3, omega oil and a "happy" blue light. She also made me start the whole 30, which I did two full months of. I still some what eat that way, but now I'm looking into the AIP Paleo because I found I can't eat the night shades.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">My chronic pain issue was then worked on, my blood work showed I have hhv6 and it's in my bone marrow.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">With my other changes and adding Coriolus-PSP and vitamin C, it went into remission! It's something I can't completely get rid of, but it's manageable now.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">This year though, due to craziness my anxiety started up again, February and March were really tough. And I started having really dark gloomy days even despite the beautiful sunshine. I knew I wasn't ok and that it wasn't something that would go away. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">I have been fighting this for almost 17 yrs on my own.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">I was exhausted and realized I couldn't fake a smile anymore.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">A friend spoke to me with raw honesty last week and I knew she was speaking truth out of love. Monday I had my doctor app to check up on my thyroid levels and my mood. The moment she walked in the room she knew I wasn't doing well, I've been really low these last few weeks or so, I couldn't hide it anymore, my eyes tell the truth.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">In the beginning of all this 17 yrs ago I refused to tell anyone I was struggling, I was afraid the anti-depressants would be thrown at me, which at that time that's what doctor's did. I was afraid of basically becoming a brain dead zombie, I didn't want to lose my emotions. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">17 yrs later, I'm in a good place. I'm ok with not being ok. I'm willing to do what I need to do so that I can gain my life back and not miss out... I've missed out on so many yrs! My doctor said almost verbatim what my friend had said to me. Confirmation. So after doing all the other above for my health, I was ready and willing to make this leap. So Monday I started taking Citalopram (Celexa) and it's like night and day! I'm on half of a 10mcg pill for 7 days then will go to the whole if all goes well.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">I don't regret the past 17 yrs and all I've endeared, it got me where I am today. There's no guilt. I know some who refuse to take these meds and don't understand why people need them. I can tell you now my severe depression and anxiety weren't something I could just get rid of, or even pray away. It's a miss wiring in my head that won't stop glitching. It's not because of my lack of faith or sin. It's just my insides not working properly.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;">I'm thankful for the people in my life that care deeply for me. I'm thankful that God loves me enough that He put these people in my life. He gave people the mind and knowledge to create a little pill to help others like me! And I have to say it's the best thing for me right now. Today I got up and walked 6.6 miles, from my home to my favorite coffee shop and back home again. I'm calm, my mind is clear, I feel really good... It's almost hard to explain. I enjoyed conversation with my teens, I'm laughing and singing... My real me is coming back. And I'm thankful, oh so thankful!! </span></div>
Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-70040828731044302822016-03-09T15:41:00.000-08:002016-03-09T15:41:51.302-08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">My journey through life, I thought it to be some what dull and nothing to write home about. But lately I'm finding I was wrong. Memories flooding in my mind, most not that I would want to remember because they weren't the best of times.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I've witnessed a lot of sickness, death and horrible accidents in my small world. Each one touching my heart and soul deeper than I ever thought they could. And now I'm finding even today that I've never gotten over them. They clench my heart so tight I'm unable to breathe as of late.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I've witnessed sicknesses and horrible accidents my mom endured. Trauma in regard to myself. The death of grandparents and other relatives. Horrific car accidents. Accidental hangings of friends. Accidental shootings of friends. Deaths from cancers.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">My heart cares so incredibly deep for those around me that it kills me when someone is hurt or struggling. It's not that I want to do everything in my power to fix what ever it is, I know I'm not the fixer. It's that I feel what they are going through as if I'm in their shoes and I can imagine what others in their lives are going through as well. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">To have it all pile up in my thoughts and spew all over me before I even get out of bed in the morning has been a debilitating and very stressful, my anxiety has come back. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">PTSD, it's not just those who have been in battle, it can happen to anyone and I hate it, I hate what it does to me... or anyone for that matter.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I need to continually bring this back to the Lord. Never ceasing in prayer and always in fellowship with others. But when I'm debilitated like this it's hard to get to because everything that's simple and good becomes just as overwhelming as my thoughts.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I used to head out by myself to sit in silence, be it on the sand by the ocean at sunset, or by a river bed in the afternoon. To sit on a porch at dusk just reading. Those were my go to run away places as a teen, to just be with the Lord in silence and listen to all He has created. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I really haven't been able to do that since the 90's.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Now I hang out in my house, usually by myself... I'm a stay at home mom. It's not the same.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I want to just be able to go out for a bit, and I know I totally could during the day while everyone is gone. But being in the city, I really don't know where to go that isn't a long trip. It was easy when I could just walk out my door and head to the river by foot, but I don't live in the country anymore. I've been stuck in the city walls for a long time and fear of death and everything else kept me down and confined to one place.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Writing this out helps.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">That's another hard thing. Friendships aren't like they were. Its all different now. People are busy with their lives. I would love movie nights/game nights/just hanging out nights with adults. I love my children don't get me wrong... but adult time without kids is extremely important.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">So anyways... if you made it through this long ramble of a post congrats. Sorry I'm writing a lot... see not getting enough interaction with humans lately.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Seems I have a lot to work through and work on this year, but the outcome and growth from all this will be good, whether it turns out the way I think it should or not, it will still be good because I will have hopefully learned something new. </span></span></div>
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Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-90990351643418618232016-02-12T14:23:00.002-08:002016-02-12T15:02:22.141-08:00Misunderstood<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Yup, misunderstood is my middle name and its been hitting me really hard so far this year. Sorry this is long... but it's this inverts way of opening up.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I do not do well at all when it comes to being articulate in the moment or in person. So it leads to me saying things wrong, misjudgment and being misunderstood. It always hurts me deeply when this happens to the point I want to just remove myself completely. I do better if I just don't speak at all.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I can't even get out what's going on inside of me, but I would hope others would be gracious, patient and understanding, because I know I can't articulate/say the right words and its always a huge struggle and makes me disappointed with myself. I feel out of touch and alone when it comes to this, it leads me to invert even more than I do.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">This is a really hard time for me right now, I'm trying to find who I am and to find my voice and apparently everything that comes out of it when I do open my darn mouth causes problems. So why speak at all.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm broken, broken in my heart and broken in my soul.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm tired of being judged for something I'm not or mean to be.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm tired of being misunderstood.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm tired of trying.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">When I'm struggling with something or someone I don't need others to take it personally or judge me for it and hold on to it as my standard of who they think I am. I need prayer in that situation for a change in my heart and attitude, if I'm in the wrong, I need encouragement in Christ and the word, not one's preconceived opinion of me and the situation because, I get it, people really don't truly know me.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">And I don't know quite how to articulate who I am because I'm still uncovering what I had hidden away over a decade or so ago... that girl who wasn't afraid to speak, who was bold and light hearted and just enjoyed life and others around her with a whole lot of "British" sarcasm (dry humor) thrown in, more willing to speak her mind and what's in her heart, not afraid, so deeply compassionate for others that it hurts.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Ok, so typing that out just showed me that maybe I have uncovered that lost girl, but change is constantly happening, so she looks different to me, I'm older and my thinking has changed, there's a balance, but still, don't know how to show it or what it even looks like.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">My flaws and strengths kill me because I'm unable to articulate which leads to misunderstanding from others who didn't know that girl all those years ago. I'm judged by what little they've known of a girl that wasn't even really me.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">That lost girl fighting so hard to be seen for what she truly is and to be understood and loved none the less, to be encouraged to dance as she once did. But she's constantly wrongly pushed away by myself and others, at some point she's just going to suffocate and die, I don't want that, it's taken so much time of healing to get this little bit of light she's managed to push out. If that's snubbed out I'm afraid I'll never get her back. She will be lost for ever. She's paper thin delicate, she needs encouragement and nurturing but properly with caring hands, always pointing her back to Christ. </span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;"><b>I'm hurting and I'm really sorry this is such a downer blog post. And of course it's taken me a hand full of hours to write it out.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm so thankful I have a "Hesed father" who knows me more deeply than any other, who daily shows me grace when I don't deserve it, who judges me rightly and is always changing my heart for His good.</span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span class="chapter-3"><span class="text Ps-139-1"><span class="chapternum"> </span>O <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>, you have searched me and known me!</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-2" id="en-ESV-16242"><sup class="versenum">2 </sup>You know when I sit down and when I rise up;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-2">you discern my thoughts from afar.</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-3" id="en-ESV-16243"><sup class="versenum">3 </sup>You search out my path and my lying down</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-3">and are acquainted with all my ways.</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-4" id="en-ESV-16244"><sup class="versenum">4 </sup>Even before a word is on my tongue,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-4">behold, O <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>, you know it altogether.</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-5" id="en-ESV-16245"><sup class="versenum">5 </sup>You hem me in, behind and before,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-5">and lay your hand upon me.</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-6" id="en-ESV-16246"><sup class="versenum">6 </sup>Such knowledge is too wonderful for me;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-6">it is high; I cannot attain it.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span class="text Ps-139-7" id="en-ESV-16247"><sup class="versenum">7 </sup>Where shall I go from your Spirit?</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-7">Or where shall I flee from your presence?</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-8" id="en-ESV-16248"><sup class="versenum">8 </sup>If I ascend to heaven, you are there!</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-8">If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there!</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-9" id="en-ESV-16249"><sup class="versenum">9 </sup>If I take the wings of the morning</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-9">and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea,</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-10" id="en-ESV-16250"><sup class="versenum">10 </sup>even there your hand shall lead me,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-10">and your right hand shall hold me.</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-11" id="en-ESV-16251"><sup class="versenum">11 </sup>If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-11">and the light about me be night,”</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-12" id="en-ESV-16252"><sup class="versenum">12 </sup>even the darkness is not dark to you;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-12">the night is bright as the day,</span></span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-12">for darkness is as light with you.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #e06666;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span class="text Ps-139-19" id="en-ESV-16259"><sup class="versenum">19 </sup>Oh that you would slay the wicked, O God!</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-19">O men of blood, depart from me!</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-20" id="en-ESV-16260"><sup class="versenum">20 </sup>They speak against you with malicious intent;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-20">your enemies take your name in vain.<sup class="footnote" data-fn="#fen-ESV-16260b" data-link="[<a href="#fen-ESV-16260b" title="See footnote b">b</a>]">[<a href="https://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Psalm+139&version=ESV#fen-ESV-16260b" title="See footnote b">b</a>]</sup></span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-21" id="en-ESV-16261"><sup class="versenum">21 </sup>Do I not hate those who hate you, O <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>?</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-21">And do I not loathe those who rise up against you?</span></span><br /><span class="text Ps-139-22" id="en-ESV-16262"><sup class="versenum">22 </sup>I hate them with complete hatred;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Ps-139-22">I count them my enemies.</span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">It's been an interesting ride the last few weeks.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">I've put aside my yarn and fabric and have ventured back into the realm of painting and to top it off I've sold a couple!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">I wasn't quite sure what I was going to do after losing my job in November. I haven't had a full time job since 1999, so jumping into the job search pool is scary, SO much has drastically changed since the last time I search! It's strange and unnerving not being able to write out an application and speak to someone face to face.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Someone's resume can look real good, but their personality and work ethics can be horrible. It's good to have interaction before you waste everyone's time and end up firing them or they end up quitting. Just my two cents.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Anyways, I've sold paintings and now I'll be cleaning someone's home and I'm taking a few minutes out of each day to take care of a dog. Every little bit helps and I enjoy doing all of it!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;"> It helps my family out even if it isn't much. Every bit helps!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">It's an interesting beginning of the year, but it's good and I'm thankful for all that's to come, even when days are hard I will still choose to be thankful, because there is always growth in both. </span></div>
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Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-40727100677248155022016-01-01T20:28:00.002-08:002016-01-21T13:25:08.367-08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #ea9999;">The last few days I've felt a bit uneasy, like something bads going to happen.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">Of course I also feel like I'm making mistakes and doing and saying everything wrong. It's very unnerving. My ptsd has been acting up big time.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">There's no reason for it. I'm blaming it on my "regret" eating and pms.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">Because that always throws everything off track.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">It's the first day of 2016, new babies and weddings ahead for a lot of people in my life! That's very exciting! I'm so happy for everyone and praying with these new journeys in their lives that they will be truly blessed this year.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">I don't really make any resolutions, of course this last year some goals were accomplished! This year I just want to do my best to make it through each day with a right attitude even when the days aren't so good. I do want to create more and get projects I've started, finished... some of them have been waiting for more than a year, ouch.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">Need to work on meal planning and freezer meals. Did the whole30 last year and it was the best thing I've ever done, my reactions to the "do not eat" list are definitely well known now. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">Must do better with nourishing my family to better their health. It will most definitely help with the above mentioned.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999;">Sorry my blog posts aren't that interesting... I'm working on it. </span></div>
Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-78740444476599381672015-12-31T14:02:00.003-08:002015-12-31T14:02:58.723-08:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Because I couldn't have said this any better...</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><a href="http://storylineblog.com/2014/10/20/your-growth-may-threaten-others-grow-anyway/?utm_campaign=coschedule&utm_source=facebook_page&utm_medium=Donald%20Miller" target="_blank">Your Growth May Threaten Others, Grow Anyway </a></span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">This is what I'm dealing with and learning right now. Really have nothing else to say about it.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Goodbye 2015, you were amazing and everything I had wanted you to be all came to pass in a wonderful life stretching way. Not everything happened in the way I thought it would, but it happened in the way it was supposed to.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Hello 2016, I see this will be yet another year of growing and stretching and I'm ready for ya, even though inside I know with all of that there will be serious aches and pains. But it's totally worth it!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">we will see what 2016 will bring.</span></div>
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Christinahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/10577163940866068404noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-24777542263849385452015-12-11T13:01:00.001-08:002015-12-11T13:07:30.705-08:00When Time Flew <div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">The flying of time.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">It's a cruel, heartless beast.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Never stopping for the slow, so that they may catch up.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">It just keeps moving forward.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">This has been a been a yr that has gone by quicker than the last.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">It's been a learning year,</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">a growing year,</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">an exciting and trying year.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Years prior were full of continuous pain and naps, things were missed out on, with only the photographs as a witness to life that really happened in my mental absence.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">There can't be guilt or condemnation, it's long gone and past.But there is thankfulness to see how far I've come.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">A few more years and one by one my children may be preparing to leave the nest. It's exciting and scary to think of them on their own. But such is life and we can't hold them back and keep them from growing up. Just as we did the same, they will do the same. They are already making choices that are leading them into adult hood. They are failing and accomplishing many things during this time and I'm thankful that I get to be apart of this time of their lives.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">There will be tears and maybe empty nest issues, but I wouldn't have it any other way. </span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">It's an exciting time.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">My creativity has taken a huge hit during my illness, I've tried time and time again to kick start my gift, but not doing it for so long with a little bit thrown in here and there makes it really incredibly hard to accomplish. I'm not sure what I will do with all of it.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">So many projects yet it seems every time I'm on the web, I'm bombarded with art&craft. And I feel old because I'm not up to date with design and display of my work.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">There has been created this false sense of perfection that most people can't reach. You see it in photographs, home decor and the crafts/art. You know what I mean? That magical, white wash lit, minimalist, outdoor-ish, photoshop (a lot of the time), candles aglow, perfection.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: white;"><span style="color: white;"><span style="font-family: "courier new" , "courier" , monospace;"><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: "georgia" , "times new roman" , serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">It catches your eye and draws you in and fills you with this magical, glittery feeling... and then you look around at your house and go into some kind of depression because you can't achieve such perfection at all times. Oh pinterest is good for showing you how to accomplish this look, but really in the end do we really accomplish it. I don't think so, unless you're made of money and a whole lot of time, sweat and tears. Haha, oh brother.</span></span></span></span></span></span></div>
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Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-86131930234888085372015-09-15T15:59:00.000-07:002015-09-15T15:59:49.752-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">We're already half way through September and my intentions of blogging more have obviously failed me this year.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">I don't even know if I can remember everything past my last post.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">In May I went back to the doctor... we had more things to figure out. Got on track with the thyroid and vitamin D deficiency. But was still having chronic pain and anxiety (although that had calmed down significantly!) Got blood work and found my pain was associated with HHV6 which is something we all have in us,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">It IS NOT the sexual transmitted disease. It's a virus that attacks different parts of the body... it just happened to attack my bone marrow. The only thing that can be done is to get it into remission.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">So we started on that and I've noticed a huge difference!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">The drastic changes in the weather still effects some pain but it doesn't last as long. Praise God!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">I wouldn't wish chronic pain on anyone!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">My doctor also told me I had to start the Whole30 and I have to say, That was THE BEST thing I've ever done!!</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;"> I've lost 46.2lbs</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">But not only that I've gained my life back, I feel better and I can function once again.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;">Still deal with anxiety but it's not like it was.</span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm sorry I'm so vague, There's so much more I could say about these changes.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">But today has been a down day for me and not feeling like a whole lot of words.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">This is where I'm at now, I have 12.8 lbs to reach my goal, but at this point I'm ok with what ever happens from here.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">It's been a crazy busy summer and I'm finding this is my year for getting used to being apart of it, because I missed out the last few yrs or so due to being so sick and depressed.</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I can say my vitamin D levels are perfect!</span></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #ea9999;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">My thyroid finally went back up, but now it's a little to high so we are working with the meds to get it leveled out... of course if I continue with whole30... which I'm mostly doing anyways, then maybe one day I'll be able to stop the meds.</span></span></span></div>
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Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-823390903028725322015-03-02T16:17:00.000-08:002015-03-02T16:17:05.060-08:00New Look New Year<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">You don't really see growth until you look back over your life.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"> Wow, have I had some major changes take place!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">My view of the gospel and my heart has grown and strengthened. I'm able to show grace where I wasn't able to before, in relationships with friends (old & new), family and even Joe Schmoe off the street.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Cannot believe we've been with our little church for over two years now! We've come a long ways and we've had some huge bonding experiences together.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">It's become that safe place I've longed decades for.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">And worshiping with my husband has been sweet. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've also gone to a doc for my physical issues. I was SO sick the end of last year into January of this year. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">major depression, sluggish Thyroid, and bad vitamin D deficiency</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">The first day I started taking 10,000 mg of D and fish oil... because an oil needs an oil and you lose potency when you just take a multivitamin with D in it... I saw a big difference!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Then I started taking the Thyroid meds and another huge difference! I actually started dropping weight I've been struggling so hard to lose! And my body temperature went back to normal... it was a consistent 97 degrees.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Lost 3 lbs when I was sick and then another 5-6 lbs after I started going to the doctor! I only have 40 more lbs to go to reach my goal weight! It feels good to not be stuck anymore.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Last year was also my year of heavy anxiety attacks. It got to the point that I was struggling 24/7, I wouldn't wish that on anyone! It's the worst feeling in the world!</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've only had one so far this year. But I know I'm not completely cured and I will have my ups and downs as my body heals.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">The Lord has been so sweet to me during this time. He has blessed me in more ways then I could ever imagine.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Even got one of those light boxes, doc's orders, and that has helped greatly as well.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've been doing my best to keep my creativity going.</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">You can see what I've been up to over on my facebook page. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><a href="https://www.facebook.com/pages/The-Sleepless-Stitch/186513348097643" target="_blank">The Sleepless Stitch </a> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I have my Etsy shop still <a href="https://www.etsy.com/shop/Sleeplessstitch" target="_blank">Sleepless Stitch</a> </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"> But more items are sold outside of the shop. </span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Haven't done a whole lot of photography... it happens just not as much as it used to. I blame it on cell phones. haha</span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I will write more on here as things come to mind... I know I didn't go as deep in my thought as I could. But it's been a long time since I've written like this and it takes time to pick it back up.</span></span></div>
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Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-77693555385364697162014-06-27T18:21:00.001-07:002014-06-27T18:21:37.555-07:00<div style="text-align: center;">
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've tried coming back here to blog a few times in the last year or so instead of posting on my facebook wall, and I've failed every time. So going to try this again, because I know the more I do it the easier it will get.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I know my posts over there are a hit and miss with some, so it would be much better to write it all out together so nothing is missed or misinterpreted and then share my blog over there.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">What I've been learning the last few months... </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">For bible study we have all been meeting together, men and women, to go through Timothy Keller's book, Gospel in Life Grace Changes Everything. </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">You can watch the videos that go with it on youtube, </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">here's one of them: <span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><a href="https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5XRYVWehkU" target="_blank">https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=G5XRYVWehkU</a> </span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">It is taking us into a deeper understanding of what the Gospel is and so far taken us deeper into our lives so as to find our core idol/sin that controls our lives. Most of the time we don't even realize it. Which I didn't. It took a lot of digging and prodding to get to it. </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">We always look at our surface sins, the coping sins, but we don't realize that nothing will change unless we repent of the foundation of our sin. Which is what we idolize most even without realizing it.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">There are four core sins/idols:</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Power</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Mine is control, which spider webs into my surface/coping sins: worry, anger, fear, irritability, debilitation, comfort and so on and so on. </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">So what do I do with it?</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Confess, repent and rejoice in Christ.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Does it change everything in a blink of an eye?</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">No, it is something that will continue to try and take control of me. Yes, in wanting control I give up my control to control. Stupid circle. </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">But I know where to go and that is to my gracious savior.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Failure will always be there because we live in a broken world. But by the grace of God I will continue to grow in Him despite my failures.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've been following Paul Tripp and Timothy Keller on facebook and usually share what they post. It's encouraging to me and at times convicting. I highly recommend following them. ^__^</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Also read Lamentations 3 today. After I had posted something I was struggling with over on facebook, the worship song that comes from this passage started running through my head.</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Lamentations 3:17-41</span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-17" id="en-ESV-20372"> My soul is bereft of peace;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-17">I have forgotten what happiness is;</span></span><span class="text Lam-3-18" id="en-ESV-20373"><sup class="versenum"> </sup></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-18" id="en-ESV-20373"><sup class="versenum"> </sup>so I say, “My endurance has perished;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-18">so has my hope from the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>.”</span></span> </span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-19" id="en-ESV-20374"><sup class="versenum"> </sup>Remember my affliction and my wanderings,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-19">the wormwood and the gall!</span></span><span class="text Lam-3-20" id="en-ESV-20375"><sup class="versenum"> </sup></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-20" id="en-ESV-20375"><sup class="versenum"> </sup>My soul continually remembers it</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-20">and is bowed down within me.</span></span><span class="text Lam-3-21" id="en-ESV-20376"><sup class="versenum"> </sup></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-21" id="en-ESV-20376"><sup class="versenum"> </sup>But this I call to mind,</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-21">and therefore I have hope:</span></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><b><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span class="text Lam-3-22" id="en-ESV-20377"><sup class="versenum"> </sup></span><span class="text Lam-3-22" id="en-ESV-20377"><sup class="versenum"> </sup>The steadfast love of the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span> never ceases;</span><br /><span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks"> </span><span class="text Lam-3-22">his mercies never come to an end;</span></span><span class="text Lam-3-23" id="en-ESV-20378"><sup class="versenum"> </sup></span></span></b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>It is so true that the older you get the faster time flies by, there's no slowing down. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Things have been good, I've had my ups and downs but I'm pushing through and the Lord is constant. Winter brought a lot of sickness for me, but I think I'm finally on the other side.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>My body even tried to have a panic attack this last week and it wasn't allowed to swallow me up! I kicked it's butt! </b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>We love our little fellowship, the Lord has been doing some sweet sweet things among us and our relationship is deepening day by day.</b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>I have had incredible joy flowing through me this year... no not the happy feely visible stuff, but that unspeakable overflowing joy that's within the heart, that comes even in the trials, struggles and stormy days because it's from knowing the Lord and knowing He is in full control in my life and His gracious merciful everlasting love covers me. Even in times of conviction and discipline comes sweet joy. </b></span><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Saddened by the things that are happening in this world daily.</span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Saddened by the realization that not everyone I know understands or truly believes what they say they do. </span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I'm saddened by my own sin nature. NO I will never be perfect til I'm standing next to my savior. He is ever changing and stretching me daily. I'm thankful for His never ending grace and mercy for me! His forgiveness blesses me in so many ways, I can't put it into words.</span></span></b><br />
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<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">I've always looked at my life as a stack of books the Lord's already written and I'm not aloud to see the end, I'm just to walk through it each chapter at a time. Well a book in my life has been finished and not everything that was in that book will be carried on into this new book that has started. It hurts badly and I feel as though I'm mourning a death. </span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">But so far I've been incredibly blessed and the Lord has placed in my life a safe place where I can be open and share my heart without being afraid of condemnation and judgment. We are choosing to do things differently than what we have been taught or grown up in. We choose to be an encourager and to pray with each other and not hold anything against anyone. We choose to communicate with each other. We choose to hold each other up. We choose to take everything and all things to the Lord together. We choose to be open to others who come into our lives, no one is left out. We hold each other's hearts with a caring and loving hand. Willing to ask for forgiveness when needed and willing to forgive as we should, showing mercy and grace to others.</span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">We are learning these things, it's hard when you have been hurt over and over again, but I know we will grow and are growing each day always pointing each other to the Lord in all things. </span></span></b><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Choosing to let go of and give up "myself" and choosing to let the Lord be my all. </b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Ok, so what started out sad has turned into joy as I wrote this.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Lord, thank you for healing my heart and restoring my soul. Thank you for loving me enough to burn and chip away the things I don't need. It hurts so badly, but I know that You do all these things because You love me more than I could ever imagine or express. You know my heart's desire and I see things happening that I never thought I would. Soften my heart even more and I ask again for the wisdom and discernment that I know You placed on my heart to ask for when I was so very young. Those are two gifts that I have always dearly loved that I was blessed with.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>I got lost for a long time, but I know You can restore that which was lost. I have a joy that cannot be comprehended or seen. I truly understand what it is now and I'm so very grateful! </b></span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>So even in this sadness and with all these tears I have a joy that can never be taken away from me. And I'm so incredibly blessed.</b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">There have been so many occasions where I have failed and fallen flat on my face in a horrible mess of crap.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">It's slimy and sticky and really hard to get out of. But there is a remedy! And that is realizing that you have no control over anything. You do have a choice. Who will you serve? Will it be the bad or the good. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">I'm covered by the Grace of God and even when I fall He is always there to pick me up, wipe me off and encourage me to head in a better direction, so that I'm not wallowing in the mess I just fell in, because I think I'm not worthy enough to do anything about it.</span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">He chose me, He sacrificed His son for me, He covered me in Grace and my cup is always overflowing with His amazing love for me! </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">Bad days come and go, but they don't have any control over me... </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-size: x-large;">So I press forward knowing I was chosen by an amazing God who created it all.</span></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: large;"> </span>Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-74722319725921599852014-01-13T14:54:00.002-08:002014-01-13T14:54:29.020-08:00New Look<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: white;">It was time for a new look on here, so this will do for now.</span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: white;">More writing may be happening as well this year. And maybe a few pictures here and there. We will see. </span></span>Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-20442528285420300952014-01-02T13:42:00.000-08:002014-01-02T13:42:36.786-08:00The beginning<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>So really!?! I haven't been on here since April?? </b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>It was a whirl wind of a year and life got so incredibly busy that I just couldn't keep up anymore.</b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>We got involved with our friend's church plant a handful of months ago and were slowly transitioning out of our old church. The Lord was so sweet to allow the process to go slowly for me, because I was struggling in the beginning and wasn't sure... because I never thought in a million years that my husband would be willing to leave his parent's church. We are excited though and bonds have been bonded strong and I absolutely LOVE the growth of the friendships between our little group. We aren't out for numbers, we are out for hearts. And it is super sweetness to our souls. </b></span></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="font-size: large;"><b>Today we started the year with a loss of a sweet Aunt. She will be missed dearly but I'm so thankful the lord gave us these last few weeks with her. We have peace knowing that she has gone off well in her soul. </b></span></span></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">Also deleted some and changed my profile description. Cleaning things up and making things simple<span style="font-size: large;">. <span style="font-size: large;">Spent the weekend taking pictures at the coast<span style="font-size: large;">, ladies night<span style="font-size: large;"> and baby<span style="font-size: large;"> shower. I haven't taken that many photos in a long time. It was f<span style="font-size: large;">un<span style="font-size: large;">, and I know I've said this be<span style="font-size: large;">fore, but it is so true and I just need to stop fighting it and just take it for what it is. I am not a p<span style="font-size: large;">ortrait photographer of people. They don't c<span style="font-size: large;">ooperate and make funny faces<span style="font-size: large;">. I'm so much better with objects that don't move or <span style="font-size: large;">even breath<span style="font-size: large;">e. LOL </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></div>
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Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-26983051871476858312013-03-28T20:22:00.000-07:002013-03-28T20:22:14.724-07:00Fat Girl Screaming Mad Over Here!<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>Another year older and frustrated as all heck with the fact that I should have been taking care of myself these past 10 yrs and now I'm paying the consequences and have become what I never wanted to be. It is so hard to take care of you when you have four other people in your life that need your attention on top of a house that demands you take care of it as well. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>I just need to lose 60lbs at most. If I could lose 10lbs a month I would feel so much better and my insides would be so much more happier. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>Every time I go to work out and stick with it, something happens. I'm either in pain or I get sick. There is never a good time. And the energy to do anything always comes right before the weekend. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>It's ridiculous and I'm so sick of it. Food isn't satisfying anymore, haven't really been wanting it, but when I do eat... it feels like to much.</b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>This struggle is one that has been lost so many times that in the end I just want to give up and then another few lbs add on. What a never ending battle and when the right encouragment isn't there it only makes it 100 times harder. </b></span></span><br />
<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>I think if I get pissed off bad enough that will kick me into gear and I will finally win this battle... although I know this may go on for the rest of my life, but at least it may be a bit easier as I go. I want to finish my 30's and head into my 40's feeling like I'm a kid again not like some 80/90 yr olds. Only a couple more years to go, so time to make it count! </b></span></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Have been busy so far this year, cleaning out things around the house and reorganizing. One accumulates a lot when one is in the same place for 10 yrs. lol</span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Getting the urge to buy new furniture, but I will refrain. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">My guy hasn't been working since before Christmas, but has gotten some furniture built. </span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">New bookshelf headboard in our room and a shelf unit for the front door to keep shoes. He also built a shelf unit for our collection of vinyls. Grateful for all the free wood he accumulated. It's saved us a whole lot!</span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Oh and after 10yrs we are finally making our bedroom an inviting place! Painted and got rid of the horrible dark nautical blue that's been there since the beginning. Our walls are now a nice grey in two shades. Love it and can't wait to finish the room with some decor. </span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Quit coloring my hair last yr. and all my natural grey/white is showing quite nicely... Of course it's been there since my teens, I just couldn't keep up with how fast it grows. A bit more growth and I will be able to cut the last of the color off and be done. I am strongly thinking of adding strands of violet purple when all said and done. </span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: x-large;">Aches and pains are mild, praise the Lord... I've done ok this winter. Of course I think the hot flashes have helped a lot! And taking my vemma... which I haven't been so faithful with, I'm working on it though. LOL</span></b></span><br />
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<b><span style="color: #ea9999; font-size: x-large;"> </span></b>Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-14520564815728808672013-01-05T16:38:00.000-08:002013-01-05T16:38:35.945-08:00Need to Vent...<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">Just because I don't have a college degree and I don't have a "professional" whatever. Does not mean I don't know what I'm doing and don't have an eye. I'm very talented and have a huge amount of creativity flowing through this body of mine. Peo<span style="font-size: large;">ple only ever see spurts of my talent because I<span style="font-size: large;">'m not <span style="font-size: large;">always given the <span style="font-size: large;">opportunity to do more. </span></span></span></span> <br />It infuriates me to no end when people laugh me off in regards to being a <span style="font-size: large;">pro at what I do </span>or the<span style="font-size: large;">y ask me to do something and then try and tell me how to do what it was <span style="font-size: large;">I was asked to do. </span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">Just give me a chan<span style="font-size: large;">ce and I can <span style="font-size: large;">fly all <span style="font-size: large;">by myself. </span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I don't <span style="font-size: large;">know why I always al<span style="font-size: large;">low others to do this to me. It <span style="font-size: large;">keeps my flame small and doesn't allow me to burn all the wax around around me. I end up a sunken middle<span style="font-size: large;">.</span></span></span></span> And no one wants a candle that can't burn prop<span style="font-size: large;">erly.</span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-size: large;">I'm <span style="font-size: large;">suffocated which only makes me want to get out and go some<span style="font-size: large;"> where where <span style="font-size: large;">I can just breathe<span style="font-size: large;">, </span>be m<span style="font-size: large;">yself and do the things I'm good at<span style="font-size: large;"> </span></span></span></span></span>and love to do. Yes, I wear many hats as a mom<span style="font-size: large;">, but I also wear many hats <span style="font-size: large;">as an artist and indiv<span style="font-size: large;">idual. </span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></span></b></span><br />
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>The end of 2012 was a bit rude, but we made it through and can only go up from here, right?</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>Like many, unemployment has hit our home and so we are back to taking one day at a time. The Lord has continued to bless us with what we actually need and ever so often we get a little extra, but seems that's where we have to be, completely reliant on Him.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>Flipping out and stressing isn't in the cards, it doesn't help and it's not healthy for any one around us. I don't know that the younger two quite understand because they keep asking if we can go places. haha. It's all good though, we have each other and our family and friends.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>On a happy note, I started out this year with a bang and started cleaning and rearranging furniture. Got the living room finished and headed to the dining room (same room) Next I will get the bathroom done and then the kitchen. Over on FB a friend set up a ggroup for flyladies so that has been nice to have some support and encouragement to get things done. This year I'm going to do my best to keep things around here in order. I'm tired of the mess that comes from having 3 children and yes even a husband.</b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>And being here 10 yrs, well yeah, crazy how things accumulate. </b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>Physically, I've been doing better. Had 4 panic attacks in the last few months or so. Ended up in the ER the first time because I couldn't kick it. But realized it has a lot to do with my hormones and the whole pre/menopause and just getting older. </b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: x-large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>We have a teenager now! two more years another, then our last baby will be one too. And five years from now we will have an 18 yr old. Craziness. I'm still a bit excited to have them all grown up, but it's going to be weird. </b></span></span></div>
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<span style="font-size: large;"><span style="font-family: inherit;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b>I'm so glad my body hasn't fallen apart in all the cold. Been trying to remember my vemma, which for some reason has been hard this time around. Actually started giving it to the kids to build up their immune systems. The girl and I did get sick last week, but it was nothin' compared to prior years. My middle man is sick now too but he has only had a stomach ache and nothing more Praise God!</b></span></span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Gosh, it's been over a month since I last wrote something.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Just haven't felt like it.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Thought we just started September, but we only have 4 days left then October will hit! Craziness this life we live.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Kids are enjoying school, but I'm already tired of the routine. LOL this happens to me every school year, you'd think I would be use to it by now. I'm just not a morning person.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Started doing the C25K thing last week. Not a fan of running because of my stupid knees and actually would prefer to walk, less impact. But I'm doing it with a friend and that helps. I lost some weight but it seems I'm stuck and I haven't lost much. Really really annoying. I have 60+ lbs to lose to be in a healthy bracket... But it's going so slow!</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Had a bit of a struggle a week ago. OK, it was a big struggle. Panic attacks are so rare in my life, I've only had 5 since 1998. That is counting this last one. But this one was the biggest I've ever had! It was also the first time that my husband wasn't with me and it lasted all day. I did my best to focus on the good, listening to the bible, worship music up loud to drown out what was going on in my head, talking with others who were all praying for me all day. Even got myself to bible study that night. But I just couldn't stop my body from completely freaking out. The tingling and tightness in my body was just to overwhelming and I ended up leaving bible study early and got my husband to take me off to the ER. They got me in right away hooked my heart up to a monitor so they could watch my heart. Which was perfect, there were a couple times that it dropped to 70 and that wasn't helping me. So got my first EKG and then they dosed my up with two shots in the hip. Benedryl, muscle relaxer and Lolrazipam (sp?) That help greatly! My hip is still a bit achy though. OUCH! </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>Anyhow yesterday was the first day I felt normal again. Feeling much better, still struggling a little but it's nothing compared to those few days. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>My body is very sore, but it's manageable, over did the running yesterday so taking it a bit easier today and honestly this weather isn't helping. Got to keep my bones warm. Still taking my vemma but I keep forgetting to take it every day. </b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>I think focus is my goal for the end of this year. I just can't keep focused. I know I'm going into the next stage of menopause so my body is going through a few loops in this roller coaster of life. But I really wish I could focus better on everything I do.</b></span></div>
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<span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;"><b>The Lord is good though and I'll get through all of this as I've gotten through everything else in my life. </b></span></div>
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Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-86238178220720500132012-08-20T16:06:00.000-07:002012-08-20T16:06:21.795-07:00<b><span style="font-size: large;"><span style="color: #f4cccc;">Back for more... Why yes I am.</span></span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">I'm going to start throwing things and it's not because of everyone in the house, which doesn't help, but it's me. My hormones love taking me on a roller coaster every month and it actually can be very painful. The tension headaches are a killer. And "Aunt Irma" hasn't even visited yet.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">On top of all that I'm feeling extremely fat! Nothing fits right, not even the pants I wore yesterday! I've finally realized that sweats and baggy pants aren't good to wear all the time because you just become comfortable and don't even realize you are growing in size.</span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">I just don't have the motivation, I've tried many things. It's just that everything else in my life takes top priority... will this ever change? Will I get to go workout without interruption? I don't think my body can wait until the kids have all moved out! </span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">I'm drowning and it's gonna kill me if I don't start losing more weight and keeping it off. </span></b><br />
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-size: large;">And now I sit and watch my husband down cookie cereal in front of me... he's in bad shape too, but he doesn't care and that infuriates me too.</span></b><br />
<span style="color: #f4cccc;"><b><span style="font-size: large;">I just need strength and encouragement... good encouragement. </span></b><b><span style="font-size: large;"> </span></b><b> </b></span>Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1967129309511956628.post-25318168157971693582012-08-20T13:58:00.001-07:002012-08-20T13:58:39.520-07:00<div style="color: #f4cccc; font-family: inherit;">
<b><span style="font-size: large;">Yeah yeah, I know it's been a long time since I wrote last. </span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Been busy around here, some of the time not doing anything, but none the less busy. </span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Can't believe the summer break is almost over and the kids will be going back to school. It's middle man's last year in elementary school. I really don't know how I feel about it. A little nervous for him. The oldest is finally moving up the totem pole in middle school, really hoping this year is a ton better grade wise, but if it comes down to it and things don't change he will probably home again where he can focus on what is at hand. </span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Funny, after homeschooling and then putting them in public school, all I hear is how social they are, a bit overly social because it effects the learning. What am I supposed to do!?! Isn't that what you wanted!?! Haha Yup, my kids never had an issue with getting social time in their lives.</span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Things are moving right along. Ready to make some changes in the house... always thinking of ideas and such. </span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">My website shops are doing well I guess. Selling here and there. Not bad, wish it could be more but then again I like the slow pace. </span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">Ok off to give my clean laundry some attention it's been staring at me and growing all weekend.</span></b></div>
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<b><span style="font-size: large;">p.s. still taking the vemma... need to remember to take it every day though. It does keep me going. </span></b></div>
<b><span style="color: #f4cccc; font-family: Georgia, "Times New Roman", serif;"><span style="font-size: large;">Good day to you. </span></span></b>Sleepless Stitchhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/13577754752004716252noreply@blogger.com0