Good day to you.

It's been an interesting ride the last few weeks.

I've put aside my yarn and fabric and have ventured back into the realm of painting and to top it off I've sold a couple!

Provision comes in all kinds of ways.

I wasn't quite sure what I was going to do after losing my job in November. I haven't had a full time job since 1999, so jumping into the job search pool is scary, SO much has drastically changed since the last time I search! It's strange and unnerving not being able to write out an application and speak to someone face to face.

No one wants to get to know you before they higher you anymore.

Someone's resume can look real good, but their personality and work ethics can be horrible. It's good to have interaction before you waste everyone's time and end up firing them or they end up quitting. Just my two cents.

Anyways, I've sold paintings and now I'll be cleaning someone's home and I'm taking a few minutes out of each day to take care of a dog. Every little bit helps and I enjoy doing all of it!

 It helps my family out even if it isn't much. Every bit helps!

 I will still pick up my yarn and fabric and still have some projects up for sale in my Etsy shop as well.

It's an interesting beginning of the year, but it's good and I'm thankful for all that's to come, even when days are hard I will still choose to be thankful, because there is always growth in both. 

 

The last few days I've felt a bit uneasy, like something bads going to happen.

Of course I also feel like I'm making mistakes and doing and saying everything wrong. It's very unnerving. My ptsd has been acting up big time.

There's no reason for it. I'm blaming it on my "regret" eating and pms.

Because that always throws everything off track.

It's the first day of 2016, new babies and weddings ahead for a lot of people in my life! That's very exciting! I'm so happy for everyone and praying with these new journeys in their lives that they will be truly blessed this year.

I don't really make any resolutions, of course this last year some goals were accomplished! This year I just want to do my best to make it through each day with a right attitude even when the days aren't so good. I do want to create more and get projects I've started, finished... some of them have been waiting for more than a year, ouch.

Need to work on meal planning and freezer meals. Did the whole30 last year and it was the best thing I've ever done, my reactions to the "do not eat" list are definitely well known now. 

Must do better with nourishing my family to better their health. It will most definitely help with the above mentioned.

Sorry my blog posts aren't that interesting... I'm working on it. 

Because I couldn't have said this any better...

excellent article.

Your Growth May Threaten Others, Grow Anyway 

This is what I'm dealing with and learning right now. Really have nothing else to say about it.

Goodbye 2015, you were amazing and everything I had wanted you to be all came to pass in a wonderful life stretching way. Not everything happened in the way I thought it would, but it happened in the way it was supposed to.

 

Hello 2016, I see this will be yet another year of growing and stretching and I'm ready for ya, even though inside I know with all of that there will be serious aches and pains. But it's totally worth it!

Every year I say there will be more blog posts,

but they never seem to happen...

we will see what 2016 will bring.

HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE!

Be safe.

 

 

When Time Flew

The flying of time.

It's a cruel, heartless beast.

Never stopping for the slow, so that they may catch up.

It just keeps moving forward.

This has been a been a yr that has gone by quicker than the last.

It's been a learning year,

a growing year,

an exciting and trying year.

Years prior were full of continuous pain and naps, things were missed out on, with only the photographs as a witness to life that really happened in my mental absence.

There can't be guilt or condemnation, it's long gone and past.But there is thankfulness to see how far I've come.

A few more years and one by one my children may be preparing to leave the nest. It's exciting and scary to think of them on their own. But such is life and we can't hold them back and keep them from growing up. Just as we did the same, they will do the same. They are already making choices that are leading them into adult hood. They are failing and accomplishing many things during this time and I'm thankful that I get to be apart of this time of their lives.

There will be tears and maybe empty nest issues, but I wouldn't have it any other way. 

It's an exciting time.

My creativity has taken a huge hit during my illness, I've tried time and time again to kick start my gift, but not doing it for so long with a little bit thrown in here and there makes it really incredibly hard to accomplish. I'm not sure what I will do with all of it.

So many projects yet it seems every time I'm on the web, I'm bombarded with art&craft. And I feel old because I'm not up to date with design and display of my work.

There has been created this false sense of perfection that most people can't reach. You see it in photographs, home decor and the crafts/art. You know what I mean? That magical, white wash lit, minimalist, outdoor-ish, photoshop (a lot of the time), candles aglow, perfection.

It catches your eye and draws you in and fills you with this magical, glittery feeling... and then you look around at your house and go into some kind of depression because you can't achieve such perfection at all times. Oh pinterest is good for showing you how to accomplish this look, but really in the end do we really accomplish it. I don't think so, unless you're made of money and a whole lot of time, sweat and tears. Haha, oh brother.