This is probably really for Elinore and Emily to read...
I seriously have no patience when it comes to teaching my children something, be it new or old. I get so frustrated with them and have to stop everything because I can't get myself out of the rut. I'm ready to put them in school!! I just want to sit down and cry because my heart isn't in it as I had thought it would be before I even had children. I have both views fighting in my head, the good of homeschooling and the good of sending them to school. I also know the not so good views of both.
So I sit here in the middle of the fight going on inside my head and I feel beaten by both.
Is it guilt for feeling like I am giving up?
Is it fear of what they might have to deal with in school?
I have checked out the elementry school that they would attend for our area and I am really impressed by their High test scores. And have friends that send their children there and they say it is a wonderful school.
This is all just to stressful on me anymore.
I know I will probably get people telling me to do this and that...I have tried everything...I feel at my wits end today.It is definately Monday...and I am seriously pmsing... : (